Yesterday I had a procedure at my gyne office that finally allowed my doctor and me to know the source of my various symptoms - a polyp and submucosal fibroid.

The type of fibroid I have is (possibly) removeable via myomectomy with hysteroscope - a procedure my Dr. recommends - HOWEVER, he noted that it is risky if done by a surgeon who does not routinely perform this operation. He referred me to a specialst at Northwestern Memorial Hospital in Chicago; my appointment for consultation is Dec. 2.

After coming home to research this issue, I am now even more uncertain WHY I am going to go with this riskier, with less *guaranteed* outcome procedure, at a very inconvenient location in the city, instead of a full (supracervical) hysterectomy done by a surgeon I know at my excellent hometown hospital. I do understand that the myomectomy is outpatient and supposedly has shorter recovery time. But I really do not like the idea that fibroids can keep recurring even though the one that was bugging you was removed.

From what I read the #1 reason for myomectomy is to preserve fertility. Has no one listened to me, that I have less-than-zero desire to have any more kids? I am going to be forty in a few months, fer chrissakes! I want a guarantee - no more troublesome uterine/ovarian problems, no worry about birth control. No having an operation and then needing another one in a few years. As far as I am concerned, my instinct is: lets just clean the clock and get it over with.

I will wait it out until the Dec 2nd appointment, and I will try to have an open mind as I speak to the Downtown Doctor. But now, by delaying this, I will have to start over with my insurance with my $300 deductible and portion paid for the year.

UPDATE:
Now that I have thought about it for a few days, I am wondering if I should just put off any/all surgeries for some time...my symptoms are troublesome, and sometimes worrisome,  but not life-threatening. Its a way bigger decision than I can deal with right now.My husband has feelings about this topic that complicate my decision-making. In the end, though, I have to live with this body of mine and with whatever decision I make.